yama – 独白 歌詞 ( Lyrics)

だましだましで息をしてたから
明日に持っていく余白がないほど
ただれ腐って黒くなった跡が
覆いつくしていた

僕の歪んだ器が嫌いで
額打ちつけ無力さを責めた
君の純白な器が綺麗で
声にならない声で
牙を剥いていた

背中合わせた君の孤独が僕だ
埋まることのないテスト用紙を片手に
ただ無垢なまま歩いていたかった
敵わないと気づきたかった
ずっと

己の性知る度にいっそ
あるがままを許せたらいいのに
力一杯を託した言葉で
失いはてた心全て
手繰り寄せていた

向かい合わせた君の穴が僕だ
消えることのない傷を縫いあわせた
みすぼらしいまま赤い嘘をついた
叶わないと分かりたかった　けれど

ああ、これも罪悪か
愛した罰か
触れた指先が震えていた事

隣り合わせた君の鼓動は遠く
流した涙ひとつ拭ってやれない
こんな姿じゃ到底生きられない

「それでもいい」
そう思えたら

背中合わせた君の孤独が僕だ
解けることのないテスト用紙を片手に
この手で今は探していたいんだ
ぼくはここでぼくで生きる
ずっと

damasi damasi de iki wo si te ta kara
asita ni mo tteiku yohaku ga nai hodo
tadare kusa xtu te kuro ku naxtu ta ato ga
oo itukusi te i ta

boku no yuga n da utuwa ga kira i de
gaku u tituke muryoku sa wo se me ta
kun no zyunpaku na utuwa ga kirei de
koe ni nara nai koe de
kiba wo mu i te i ta

senaka a wase ta kimi no kodoku ga boku da
u maru koto no nai tesuto yousi wo katate ni
tada muku na mama aru i te i takaxtu ta
kana wa nai to ki zuki takaxtu ta
zutto

onore no sei si ru tabi ni isso
arugamama wo yuru se tara ii noni
ryoku 一 hai wo taku si ta kotoba de
usina i hate ta kokoro sube te
tagu ri yo se te i ta

mu kai a wa se ta kimi no ana ga boku da
ki eru koto no nai kizu wo nu iawase ta
misuborasii mama aka i uso wo tui ta
kana wa nai to wa kari takaxtu ta 　 keredo

aa 、 kore mo zaiaku ka
ai si ta batu ka
hu re ta yubisaki ga huru e te i ta koto

tona ri a wa se ta kimi no kodou ha too ku
naga si ta namida hitotu nugu xtu te ya re nai
konna sugata zya toutei i ki rare nai

「 sore demo ii 」
sou omo e tara

senaka a wase ta kimi no kodoku ga boku da
to keru koto no nai tesuto yousi wo katate ni
kono te de ima ha saga si te i tai n da
boku ha koko de boku de i kiru
zutto

Because you breathe by deception.
The more there is no blank to bring tomorrow.
It's just a sign of decay and blackening
It's covered on it.

Hate my crooked device
Blame yourself for weak forehead.
Your white utensils are beautiful.
Quietly
Show one's fangs

Back to back, your loneliness is me.
Holding a test paper that won't fill up in one hand
Just want to walk without dirt
I want to realize that I lost.
all the time

Every time I know my own personality, I simply
If only I could forgive the truth.
With all your strength.
All the lost hearts
Looking everywhere

Your loophole is me.
Sew up a wound that won't disappear
Tell a red lie in a poor way
Although I want to know that it will not come true

Ah, is this also a sin?
Is it the punishment of love?
The fingertips of the touch are shaking.

Next to you, your heartbeat is far away.
I can't wipe off a tear.
You can't live like this anyway.

"Even so, it's ok."
If you think so.

Back to back, your loneliness is me.
Holding a test paper that won't melt in one hand
I want to find it with this hand now
I live on my own here.
all the time