ヒグチアイ – しみ 歌詞 ( Lyrics)

シャワー浴びながら思い出した後悔の夜
流しても擦っても落ちないシミは
鏡の中　頬に刻まれる

どうにかしなきゃともがいたところで
あの日の罪を消すことは無理だ
期待しないで　背中丸めて
日陰を生きていこう

そんなもんだろう　そんなもんだろう
人生なんてそんなもんだろう
って言うほど　思うほど
そんなわけがないと思う
いつだって素顔でいたい
恥ずかしくも恥じていたい
愛せなくてもいいの
愛されていたから
諦めに似たような
ああ　これがわたし

わたしだけが悪いのと　逃げたくなる日を
あなただけが悪いのと　責めたくなる日を
重ねていくの　平気なフリして

いっそシミだらけになってしまえば
全て元に戻るのでしょうか
覚悟はなくて　まだ捨てきれなくて
日向だって歩いていたい

そんなもんだろう　そんなもんだろう
人生なんてそんなもんだろう
っていうほど　思うほど
忘れてしまえないだろう
傷つけたかわりに
手に入れた優しさで
また愛していくよ
誰でもないわたしを
諦めに似たような
ああ　これがわたし
諦めに似たような
ああ　これがわたし

syawa- a bi nagara omo i da si ta koukai no yoru
naga si te mo su xtu te mo o ti nai simi ha
kagami no naka 　 hoo ni kiza ma reru

dou ni ka si nakya to mogai ta tokoro de
ano hi no tumi wo ke su koto ha muri da
kitai si nai de 　 senaka maru me te
hikage wo i ki te iko u

sonna mon daro u 　 sonna mon daro u
zinsei nante sonna mon daro u
tte i u hodo 　 omo uhodo
sonna wake ga nai to omo u
itu datte sugao de itai
ha zukasiku mo ha zi te itai
ai se naku te mo ii no
ai sa re te i ta kara
akira me ni ni ta you na
aa 　 kore ga watasi

watasi dake ga waru i no to 　 ni ge taku naru hi wo
anata dake ga waru i no to 　 se me taku naru hi wo
kasa ne te iku no 　 heiki na huri si te

isso simi darake ni naxtu te simae ba
sube te moto ni modo ru no desyo u ka
kakugo ha naku te 　 mada su teki re naku te
hinata datte aru i te itai

sonna mon daro u 　 sonna mon daro u
zinsei nante sonna mon daro u
tte iu hodo 　 omo uhodo
wasu re te simae nai daro u
kizu tuke ta kawari ni
te ni hai re ta yasa si sa de
mata ai si te iku yo
dare demo nai watasi wo
akira me ni ni ta you na
aa 　 kore ga watasi
akira me ni ni ta you na
aa 　 kore ga watasi

A night of regret I remembered while taking a shower
The stain that neither washing nor scrubbing can remove
In the mirror, etched on my cheeks

I have to do something about it, even if I tried
I can't erase the sins of that day
So don't get your hopes up, put your back into it
I'll live in the shade

That's the way it's gotta be, that's the way it's gotta be
That's just the way life is
I think it can't be
I don't think it's possible
I always want to keep a straight face
I want to be ashamed to be ashamed
I don't care if I don't love you
Because I was loved
It's like giving up
Oh, this is me

The days when I want to run away and say that I'm the only one to blame
I've had days when I just want to run away and blame you
I keep piling up the days pretending that I'm fine

I wonder if I'll just let it all go away
Will everything go back to the way it was?
I'm not ready, but I can't let go
I want to walk in the sun

That's just the way it is, isn't it?
Isn't that how life is?
I'll never be able to forget it
I can't forget it
Instead of hurting
With the kindness I've gained
I'll love you again
I'm a nobody
It's like giving up
Oh, this is me
Like giving up
Oh, this is me